By Samantha Barclay
Slipping confusion wrapped in blurred waking
Clutching to fuzziness
That steals away
Disastrous, illicit clarity consuming
Nightmare claws through my heart
Soul fallen. Frustration riots
Black Market trade
Intrusion
Cruel lists
Red faced memories
Floods of worries
Crash the mental fortress
Bat silent screaming
Internally deafening the moth
Unwelcome awareness to a single rain drop
A feather brushing the window pane.
A ghost standing in the dark
A straight-jacket cry
Bones bent
Blood stiffens
Longing for sinking back
Please fall!
A knife in the heart
Pushed down the well
Visions of death Loved ones pain
I'm...
With the spiders
With the blackness
With my brain
Mind clawing
I'm
Alone
Adrift
Reaching for the key
The sail
A hand...
A....
Grusome fingers curl round my foot
The monsters under my bed
Pets compared with my thoughts
Mined health, chipped away
Exchanged for groaning aching.
A bird sings
The sky lightens
Aeons of torture endured
No hope for rest
Trawl to the kettle
Puffy
Fuzzy
Adrenaline ridden disorder
I'm captured
The door opens
'Morning my sweethearts, what do you want for breakfast?'